Every now and again my ex pops back into my life and brings me right back to square one. I've been doing so well trying to move on from him but last night set me back -- again.
I know he was only trying to be nice but he texted me his condolences for a death in my family. I responded "thanks" and he texted me again after that, to which I didn't reply. He called me hun. He said everything I would want him to say. And that's the problem -- he just says these things and I don't think he really means them. Obviously he was trying to be nice by reaching out but he doesn't get to do that anymore. He doesn't get to be my rock. He doesn't get to be the person I go to for comfort anymore. And that's exactly the person he was trying to be last night. It was all too familiar and I missed that, missed him caring.
Every time he contacts me I go into a tailspin. I want to move on, but at the same time, I don't because I miss him and I want things to work out. Cutting him out of my life was working but then this happened.
I'd take a bad date over this anyday.
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